On kind of another note, spun from the walk, I am going to invest in a bike. I bet you guys are so excited to see my cute new bike riding the roads of Buckhead. I can't drive for 6 months due to seizures (stupid) and I am way to independent and stubborn to have to wait for people to drive me around. Of course I had no idea what kind of bike to even buy, I was looking at mountain bike, how was I was supposed to know? But with the help of a good friend we found a cute, "riding" bike. Of course I want pink and sparkly. I'll keep you posted on this adventure
The anxiety of Thursday is starting to slowly taking over my life. I stay up late, I woke up early, and basically I just do not sleep. The way feel is almost impossible to put into words. I am scared, but relieved. Anxious, and nervous, but also excitement to finally get the process started. I go today for an MRI and more Cat Scans. And then surgery tomorrow....EEKS!
I have a few requests. For those of you lifting me up in prayers, I know its human nature, even for me, to pray for selfish things like, no cancer. But, I ask that you pray for God's will, and pray more for acceptance, and patience for me this week and during this journey. Also pray for yourselves! Pray that you guys can all be strong for each other during this time, and be strong for me. I also wouldn't mind if you prayed that I lose as little hair as possible tomorrow hhaha, andddd maybe to be less stubborn. Thanks for keeping me in your prayers, its the greatest gift of all!!! Oh- and the baked goods have to stop. I have to honor of being the maid of honor in Laura and Michael's wedding in April, and I prefer not to be obese while standing on the alter! Thanks!
Thanks to Chloe, Casey, Michael, and Kevin for filling my apartment with beautiful flowers!!! AND.....
Amen!!! If you ever need a ride, I'm not too far. Definitely praying. Love you...<3
ReplyDeletebest post so far! love it!!
ReplyDeleteagree with mish.... BEST post!!!! i love you rosa - praying every day :) xoxo
ReplyDeleteHey marissa!! I am your newest follower!!
ReplyDelete::Kristin::
www.kuppykakesbykristin.blogspot.com
I don't know you but I saw this after a Cracked article. I just want to say my mom went through this 15 years ago, and it was awful. When I found out (I was 16), I remember, I didn't react for days and then one night I was standing in the kitchen doing the dishes and I just dropped a glass and broke down crying on the floor. Then the time leading up to and after the surgery to remove it - it's such an intense thing. For months afterwards, there's the violent mood swings and the dissipate anger - and all the stuff they do tell you about. But then it gets better, imperceptibly. For my mom, the bandages went away and what was underneath looked so bad I dreaded when they would come off. Then they did and her hair had grown a little and it wasn't that bad. And then it was all grown over and her medicine was managed just-right and then it went from no driving to no driving for a long time and then at night and then, you know, lay off the contact sports. Until one day it's no longer a present-tense, it's a fact - like an appendix scar - about you that's interesting and maybe impressive, but certainly not defining. I don't know what else to say except that I hope the best for you. As a stranger all I have is that I have seen this; it's not pretty but you'll be okay. Good luck.
ReplyDeleteLove this post. I am so happy to hear that you are relying on God and prayer and most of all that you are staying positive. Your strength is a blessing and amazing to watch. You will continue to be in my prayers and I am thinking about you. Please don't be stubborn, if you need ANYTHING call me. I also love the new background on your blog.. LOVE YOU!!
ReplyDeletePrayers for God's will and for strength and guidance are in order and very good positive ways to pray. God will see you through this, I have no doubt. His way is never ours to understand but it is through our faith in Him that we trust.
ReplyDeleteKeep up the good thoughts and continue to embrace life for the miracle it is.
Much love,
Lynne
Also a stranger here from cracked.com. I am a brain cancer survivor just here to show my support. It's rough but you can do it.
ReplyDeleteAnother visitor from the UK via Cracked.com. My thoughts are with you. You are being immensely brave and I hope any prognosis is as good as it can be. I'll be visiting regularly to keep up to date. All the best.
ReplyDeleteLove you Marissa! i am amazed by your amazing attitude and maturity. praying for you today.
ReplyDeleteLove you Rissa!!!! this blog thing is so cool! I feel like I'm up with the real world now! LOL!!!
ReplyDeleteHey Marissa! I havent seen you or talked to you in a while but I found this link to your blog on facebook so I had to check it out (cause I too am a fellow blogger ha!!) But I just wanted to let you know I will definitely be thinking about you and praying for you. It looks like you have tons of people already doing that for you too! I can tell you have lots of friends and family and a whole community that love you and are supporting you! Keep thinking positive and counting your blessins; it sounds like you already are! Take care!
ReplyDeleteWith love,
Laurice (Lujan) Ray
Hi there girlfriend - catching up on your blog. You are TRULY AMAZING. And you have amazing friends in your life. I'm rooting for you, praying for you, and praying for your support system to go on unwavering.
ReplyDeleteHopefully Michelle will have a surgery update for me this weekend.
HANG TOUGH! LOVE KT
Marissa-
ReplyDeleteI just became a follower. Katie and I enjoyed our time with you and Colleen so very much. May God richly bless your lives with memories of this time that is so difficult, but yet can be sweet when you feel His love for you. Praying that your time at Emory will give guidance on the next steps. Also praying you got a window with a view to some Select Trees for quick healing! :) If not, a houseplant might just do the trick.
Much love,
Matt (Katie's hubby)
Hi, I am also a visitor from cracked.com. Your beautiful attitude and disposition inspire me so much! Keep on fighting and stay strong! I'm rooting for you too!
ReplyDeleteI don't know who you are, like a few people on here, but reading what you write is really inspiring and almost brought me to tears. You seem like an amazing person!!
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